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Enjoy this weekend while I can. Next week will be my 1st interview to open Cosway Shop. Right after will be my final term. Then my days will full with study, assignments and assignments. Here come another Raya... ahhhh another Raya? Why so many??? Halloween... since nobody invite me for Halloween Party so decided to entertain myself with some sushi and my favourite walnut brownies...mmm yummy... Sunday decided to enter Maggie My way contest.... Milky Curry Mee... Sushi King... and I am Sushi Princess Sushi Princess cheese shushi??? Cutie Cutie .... 2 + 2 = 4 ahahaahaha My Brownies & Choc Fudge & me.. Ahhhh.... so delicious and sweeeeeettttt ...mmmmm Cutie Cutie .... 2+2 = 4 yup!!! still 4 Maggie My Way Sedap tak??? mmmm boleh laaaaaa... enough for my Sunday Brunch..

My 35th birthday is on 12 Oct 2009 ,Monday. Its just another day , nothing special but I am getting older. When we get older, what do we get? Wrinkles.. Health not so good.. Boob and booty are sagging hahahaha But I can feel I am getting wiser.. well ageing not that bad after all. Happy because this year manage to visit the unfortunate home and deliver them some dry food. Thats all I can afford! Just love to see their welcome and happy face. No matter what race and what is your religion and I don't bother about your past but whats matter we are all trying our best to survive in this world. Our existense here is not by our wish but some how we were created. Waiting for dinner to be served. I was so stressed up thinking about exam another 4 days. even my bra strap is twisted lol Try my best to stay positive .. cheer up!!! I am so pale and fat!! so sad.. my stress seriously goes down to my waist a lot this year!!! I never been this fat and flabby.. so damn ugly arggggghhhh!!! Never tr

Yes! I know Min Ho in Malaysia. He was in Sg Wang and I am at Pavillion. I may like his act as Jun Pyo in BBF. I may adore him and like him but not that crazy to wait for him and see him from far. I still can control myself. My addicted is just I watched BBF for almost 40 times! Yes! almost every night! May consider buying the DVD rather than watch online or spoil my sis DVD ahahaha ... She will kill me.. I categorise myself as mature fan! Hihihii... The one that like you but wont cry over you. The one will watch you over and over again but wont spend a dime on you. The one who will obsess to see your photo then only off to bed but if I ever meet you one day.. I will not care to say hi or even show the interest!!!! Thats all about my craziness on BBF. I just hope they could come out with season 3 another 2 years! Anyway , just Min Ho who came here not Jun Pyo. The person that I really fall in love with , is not even exist. He just a character and I can see him in different version. Man

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gNjiqygkBDw Do you know what's worth fighting for, When it's not worth dying for? Does it take your breath away And you feel yourself suffocating? Does the pain weigh out the pride? And you look for a place to hide? Did someone break your heart inside? You're in ruins. One, 21 guns Lay down your arms Give up the fightOne, 21 guns Throw up your arms into the sky, You and I When you're at the end of the road And you lost all sense of control And your thoughts have taken their toll When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul Your faith walks on broken glass And the hangover doesn't pass Nothing's ever built to last You're in ruins.

Finally , can have normal Sunday like others do. Woke up with very good mood. surfing to net and received orders from my beauty store. mmm ... I feel so good! In the afternoon, study products knowledge for my coming interview on 8th Nov . Hope everything goes well for me. God! bless me for my fighting for the store... I want it I want it... help me with this. I am putting my 105% effort and hope God grant me with 45% luck! In the evening went Pavillion for my favorite Yau Char Koay with porridge and Ipoh Seafood Curry Laksa, then treat myself with soft and creamy J&J Co. doughnut! Heaven!!!! Back home re charge for tomorrow war at work! Suddenly my spirit goes down to the drain!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C3rDMJERl64 Trouble he will find you, no matter where you go, oh oh No matter if you're fast, no matter if you're slow, oh oh The eye of the storm or the cry in the morn, oh oh You're fine for a while but you start to lose control... He's there in the dark He's there in my heart He waits in the wings He's gotta play a part Trouble is a friend yeah trouble is a friend of mineAh ooh... Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh So don't forget as you ease on down the road... He's there in the dark He's there in my heart He waits in the wings He's gotta play a part Trouble is a friend yeah trouble is a friend of mineoh oh So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm I won't let him win but I'm a sucker for his charm Trouble is a friend yeah trouble is a friend of mineah ooh How I hate the w

I have a very bad migraine these days! My head feel heavy and hurt. I miss my favourite TV shows. I miss to read newspaper every morning. I miss my life I can play I can sit down and dream and can lie down on bed at some other time other than at 12.00 midnight. I miss my old days! My life right now seems to be full of too much serious thing! It hurt me a lot! Is this a sign I am getting older? These days my life all about working and working and studying and studying. Well for now... how about next year? How my life gonna be? No more study but just working? Am I still going to be at the same place? I hope not! I need to plan for next year. Next year is not far from now. I can't find time to plan... thats my biggest problem now. My place now in a mess. Don't have time to do proper cleaning. Gosh! so tired right now but still need to crack my head for my IB case studies! Nak mati rasanya... Maybe I will die due to overworked myself! One day everything just malfunction and there I

Tomorrow its another new week. Monday! I am suppose to feel positive about Monday. I don't know why, I feel not so good. Maybe I am nervous. 3 reason to feel nervous this week. 1st - My interview coming up on 20th (Tues). I need to load my brain with all those serious info. Serious meaning business talks. Get myself updated. I don't what to expect but I definate try my best. I need to get myself into this corporate world if I want to be somebody important. Yes! This is important... can I make it to be in the corporate scene? What do I need to sacrifice? I don't know... I hope not a big one... My current small timer business its my preparation if my bunion feet getting serious and also for my old age. Most of it extra income which I think helps me a lot! 2nd - How to skip my work to go for that interview? I feel guilty about this. However, my future is more important.. don't you think so??? Hope everything fine and God give me courage for this 'white lie'! 3rd -

Finish my Leadership exam just now! One down one more to go! This one need trillion effort and really really really need to buck up or I doom! I am seriously cannot even look at all those people who cause me just a pass for group assignment. I feel like vomitting to see their faces just now! I can't forgive them until now. Yes! my heart not that big to forgive such unforgivable wrong doings on me. We can avoid this thing and can at least earn a credit! Its not I cannot handle pressure to do last minute job. Well, I have done this many many times but that was work and due to not enough information or what so ever. However, this one really can be avoided and do a well plan and structured. If you guys and old woman follow my structure sent earlier , we may do as good as other team. My hand was so tired just now, writing and writing . I need more practise so that I don't feel hurt during exam due to writing too much. After exam I went straight home. I walked out with hope to get at

Yes! I neglected my blog for quite sometimes. I have been very busy and need to focus on something more important. My 35th Birthday on 12 Oct 2009 Nothing special! I declared half working day and end up running errants up and down for half a day. Rushing for interview appointment all the way at Kota Damansara. Then rushing back before post office close to arrange delivery for my downline in Sabah and Sarawak. I end up having lunch around 4.30pm! Night time thought of having sushi for dinner but end up at Manhattan Fish Market. Well my verdict is 1st time is my last time. The food was so oily! Yucks!!! Ended my Birthday night with nobody want to propose to me. So sad and sian!!!! sob sob sob.. end up being alone until I die...what a looser!!! Tomorrow is deepavali but also I am sitting for exam at 10am. Leadership Dynamics. Am I prepared??? No comment! I will try my best! I just launch new website selling general heathcare products. Hope it will do well! My ads will run starting tomorro

Today since morning when I reached office and thing about the workload waiting for me and the needs to change hats many time make me feel sick! Angry! Furious! My anger level up to my almost maximum limit.. I feel like want to kill myself immediately to end the story! But when I think about how messy is my house (I cleaned last week but the messiness come back again hehehe) I love to throw thing so what you want me to do.. mmm at least if i die the house is in order so when other come to the house will have a good thoughts about me. From morning to the evening , I just like wanna cry (almost cry though) and feel angry angry angry... Then reached home went for mini gym for a threadmill walk for 30 minutes. At least my anger reduce and manage to calm myself down. Drink horlicks for dinner! Then here goes my study! I am about to open my leadership text book here come my Goo Jun Pyo to my mind. So end up watching Boys Before Flower again! Aishhhh! thought of watching 2 episode but end up w

I feel proud of myself this week. I went to Genting after 10 years. Best thing is I drove up and down there... ish so terror la me! Hebat! hebat! I feel like Jay Chou in Initial D, my car not 86 but 5756 hahah... cepat sing song like Jay Chou and sell tofu... uhuhuhuhu But of course i drive with two hand on the steering not only one... over la.. If i can do that...mmmmm i become drift queen ledi.. Cool babes!!! Yeah cool babes yang comel! When you are 35 years no more cute la no more comel but yuckssss!!!! Genting was very very cold! Aish! how am I going to London??? Air Supply? mmm the show ok. I only know 2 of their song. The singers old and saggy! But overall performance entertaining! I can see all the auntie and uncle singing and dancing and they are just in their own world. Even one auntie sat behind me was singing like she is the back up singer for the night. They were young once. Maybe I will like them when Linkin Park come another 10 years from now!!!! huhuhhuh oh nooooo... Not

Month of October getting very weird to me. Why did I said that? 1st I have been very supportive towards my Boss. Not like me at all. I normally against him. 2nd I have to drive up to Genting after 10 years this Sunday. 3rd I am watching Air Supply because I am supportive to my Boss. Why not Beyonce or All American Reject concert ??? Why?? Aish!!!! need to put up with all those mushy mashy love song.... naeyyyyy!!! 4th Manage to show pathetic face to Boss for room sponsorship Thank you Boss hehehe Should have booked the suite hehehe my boss will reply back ' Your HEAD!!! ' haha 5th Manage to ask permission to come to work late this Monday with some lame excuse. Thank you Boss again and again... are you going to treat me bad or good after I come down??? aish!!! forogtten I have to spend at least 2 hours with him for cheque signing on Monday! God Bless my soul!!! huhuhuhuh suffer ..with the nagging... enjoy and suffer.. the pain is so great! Should have ask for whole day leave...

Since my mood not so good this week and week after. Let me entertain myself with sweet dream :) My crazy wish for my 35th birthday : 1. Holiday on 12th Oct 2. Breakfast at dome near lot 10 3. Go shopping 4. Lunch at Japanese restaurant 5. Buy grocerries and donate to 3 orphanage homes 6. Visit lil france and enjoy coffee while wearing white dress. Romantic nyeeee 7. Dinner Steamboat and grill at lil korean restaurant 8. I want new canon camera 9. I want my KENZO Flower perfumes and ever after Elizabeth Arden 5th Avenue 10. I want dior lipstick 12. I want new speaker for my computer 13. I want IPhone 14. I want car mp3 player 15. I want buy new clothes from at least 5 boutiques at Pavillion 16. I want LV bag 18. I want DIOR watch 19. I want and i want and i want and i want.... list will continue until my last breathe mmmmmmmmmmmmmm I hope I could be go jun pyo super rich and realise my dreams... for time being just my sweet dream... Gosh! got to drive up to Genting after 10 years never

I checked my UNISA email and my Leadership Dynamics individual assignment was out! Got High distinction for that. Congratulation to myself! Group assignment result was out 1 week before Raya and we got Distinction. mmm... now need to buck up forexam this 17th Oct 2009 and hopefully could get overall a Distinction for this subject. International Business , if I can get a Credit I would be happy with myself. These few days after Raya week, i feel down. Maybe one main reason due to my PMS. I feel tired with my life and feel like incomplete. I don't have my camera to entertain me. I feel lost! I miss snapping my own photo :) I want you back my dear beloved camera!!!! My job are the hectics one! I am tired listening to people! I just feel tired! How I wish I could shut him off or maybe just mute him whenever he call me in his room or meeting room. How I wish I could just tell him my peace of mind on how I feel and what he is talking about is freaking nonsense. 'Syok sendiri' ! G

I was reading Women's Weekly Oct 2009 issue when I discover this article saying , stress goes down to waist line... o la la la ... I was singing.. my mystery solve. Now I know on why I had built up too much of unwanted muscle around my waist line :) Everybody said I was eating a lot! But in real fact not at all.. I tried to skip rice and even skip lunch.. but that big bulky ring on my belly keep growing. Same goes with my exercise regime.. I do sit up. I do stretch up. Yoga and dance .. ah ! name it! been there ! done that! not an inche reduction... ah! so frustrated ! But after I discover that not because what I ate..its not a problem.. i change strategy! hihihiihihihiih.... secret weapon for new me... new body.. new attitude mmm that attitude part a bit difficult hahaha... Now.. let me read one chapter of that leadership dynamic for my exam...

I was following up on my shorlisted candidates, and to my amaze all this young people really have one kind of attitude. 1st candidate - we gave her nickname of 'Tomboy' since she dress up like a boy not a girl. The 'Tomboy'gave me positive answer since she is over positive despite we painted her the tough job she is going to face, ah! I am the one feel worried on her behalf. Yu ! she is joining us on 1st Oct 2009. 2nd candidate - we gave her nickname as MD since her ambition to be MD of the company within 5 years. Very ambitious! But hey! I don't know what sort of MD she is going to since she can't even decide on taking up the offer and everything seems not so clear to her despite being told and briefed many times. I kind of not dislike her from the start since she have the potential to be one of those b@#$ in the office. My Boss like her! Whatever! she is not joining us... Thats my decision for sure! 3rd candidate - we called her 'snow white' since she

I reached with donno what to eat, as usual. I feel no appetite at all and everything seems not right at all. As usual when got back in the house, I will on the TV and computer. But tonight.... jeng jeng I almost scream oh i did screamed and cried when I saw what near my balcony sliding door... that ulat gonggok iewwwwwwwwwww wanna type the name make my hair feel eerriee... How the hell did this creature climbed up here? This one is one of my biggest fear... I feel sick suddenly! Yup! fever.. same like when I was 7 yrs old when this thing appear near me. Damn! i just tried my best to use brooms and sweep up to the dust casing and boommm here u go to the toilet with 10 times flushed. Go away! Go away! Dont disturb my miserable life. Today especially feel not so good when my group members are freaking happening. OK Cindyrina just suck up your efficiency since you are among the most 'tidak apa' group! I thought I will only find this kind of attitude among the Malays.. But hey! all

Balitung & Water Melon Juice Balitung Balitung So? What for Saturday? I am out of my house since morning. Yup! as early as 9.30am. Here goes my car servicing plan... gone. Next week morning then. I went to Cheras Mahkota waited for my potential downline. Appointment at 10.30am but she reached around 11.30am. mmmm... no comment :( Anyway, I was busy registring my VIP Shoppers to system and as well as selecting my maintainance products. Then do presentation to my potential and walah off to go for site recee. I went to Melawati and Wangsa Maju. I guess almost 10 years never been there. That place under seriously developed like nobody business not to mentioned they even have new Wangsa Walk! Fabulous!!! Then around tried DUKE highway and heading to One U. Thought of watching movie but end up do some window shopping. Too many human inside the shopping mall. Break my fast with juice work - Sping Clean - a mixture of Celery, Water Melon and Apple. Verdict : for RM8++ too many ice an

Tonight seriously sad case. Why? Reached home around 8.30pm. Seriously don't know what to eat. I drank plain water on the way back home. Don't know where to stop to buy my dinner. I feel sick to eat mamak food again. I settle with 2 pieces of Munchys Dark Chocolate Biscuits and one mug of hot green tea. Feel hungry again but just feel like no appetite at all. Tonight! crash study on products. Tomorrow my plan change suppose to send car for servicing but end up with early business appointment at Cheras Mahkota. Praying hard for Miri potential sign up under me. At least when I go for interview they will notice on my expanding network and outstanding potential. Gambatei Cindyrina!!! God! please let me have this one... dead or alive!!! Too busy these days.. Finish up my assignment then busy prepare for my exam coming Oct then busy with my interview.... Hardly can eat properly and breathe properly... Tiring!!!

This morning went to office as usual although I am sick. I have been vomitting since last night. Food poisoning , i guess! I just ate one spring roll and my favorite peanut butter waffles. I don't which one make me sick. For sure I will blacklist these two snacks for month! I am still stubborn not to break my fast until about 2.00pm. I am feeling like almost dead since I have many interviews came in. I need to put up my positive and sweet face to all these candidates. Actually, I feel like going MC but I just can't do it. Why? As usual I will put myself into all this cadidates shoes. Some of them may even took leave just to come for interview. So , I rather suffer than bring trouble to others... hehehe God Bless my kindhearted!!! Not so easy when I am controlling myself from vomitting. I guess today I have been running up and down from my room to toilet around more than 10 times. Reached home cook myself a porridge. One hopeless and useless porridge. I give myself no star to co

Today.. is most challenging day! Fasting can't drink, I don't bother too much about cannot eat at all. But can't drink? Today my 5th recruitment day. I have been seeing almost 4 candidates and talk and talk. I find a lil bit difficult can't drink even a drop of water but yet need to talk a lot. Most candidates are 2/10... where are all the good one??? Then here goes one bad news coming and disturb my emotion. Ah! here goes my hope... I feel very very down right after. Its my only hope! Why God just don't want to give me the chance? Am I that bad?? I feel giving up... but being me by nature, I will fight to the end although I will hurt. I will continue feeling down tonight and hope can be positive back again like I always did. Cindyrina way of living her life!!! Gambatei!!!! Gambatei, Cindyrina!!! I went to Tropicana City Mall to buy my food. Nothing much I can eat there.. End up buying waffles and spring roll for my break! Nice??? mmmm 2 star out of 10 hahahah since

Who to blame if I am not enough time to do my assignment! Nobody! just myself... Although, I realise this but yet I still living in my own world in 'Boy Before Flower' world. I just want to be closed to the character that I hate most. Gu Jun Pyo played by Lee Min Ho. The character just give me the goose bump. The character is like love and hate collide. How I wish I just in my dream and never wake up. If I were to be one of the character, I want to be Gu Jun Pyo character. Yes! not to be one of the love interest but I want to be him! Ah! how i wish my life like him. Arrogant! yet so fragile and soft too.... Like Beyonce latest song .. If I were a boy... Yes! if I were I boy I want to be the bad boy! I want to be the rebellious boy.. I want to be somebody who dare to do anything freely... Not about courting a girl or what... just want to be somebody that other will admire because of my daring and courage..mmmm ... if I were a boy!!! But I am just a girl.. How could I make ppl un

I finished my 1st assignment last Saturday and submitted on Sunday morning. Now I have one more to go. Hope to finish off by this Friday. I am still in honey moon period hahaha yup! got carried away since finished one assignment. My purse torn..so does my handbag :( Yesterday visited Sg Wang to get one purse. LV hahaha dont really want to get LV but somehow bought it and only realise its LV. RM30 worth of LV what the heck! hihihih fake LV!!! Can't get bag that i wanted ,so no handbag settle with old old one from my box. Thought of going to Food Republic @ Pavillion for my favourite Ipoh Curry Laksa. Somehow too full of people and got no place to sit at all. I remembered my friend Brandom open one 'Little Ben' @ Pavillion . Walk towards 'old town' and found my friend's restaurant there. mmm love the set up. Very nice! I settle with Nasi Dagang and Sailor Mee and also lemon grass tea. Splendid! The food was marvellous! Right now! I just got carried away and entert

Everyday break my fast alone... No appetite at all but if many people also make me headache. Sometimes don't feel like eating at all. When alone complain lonely but if married or have family worst... why? Imagine go back home see the same old face. again and again and again... boorrriiinggg!!! vomit blood! Sometimes I also don't know what I want. Aish!!! not sometimes but everytime hahahah ya one lost woman!!! I am very tired today... Tonight! is the night hahah tonight is the night to continue my LD assignment. Tomorrow submit then start to study product knowledge. Next week test jia yor jia yor Long weekend many many thing to do...

Although my mood swing are very bad today.. I still manage to put up my usual fake smile... drama! Anyway, today recruitment day 3. I have been talking and talking and talking bla bla bla selling the company and selling my 'BOSS' how good he is and bla bla bla ... ah! if I have choice, I will tell 'em the truth! Thank God ! I am on menstrual so still can drink after talking so much! Plus today everybody came and looking for me. Everybody called in looking for me too.. I wish I could duplicate myself. But I can't :( Next week will be worst! Got to Puasa and talk and talk the whole week frm 9.00am to 5pm. Damn!!!! I am seriously selling very hard here... Today I bought 3 Sweet Dorothy Perkins top straight from London... hahahahahah (big laugh) My very very 1st item from overseas and its London (yeah! what big thing about getting thing from London??? Nothing just feel happy hahahaha) I don't mean to keep it for myself My very 1st oversea item is a Teddy Bear from Harro

This morning, almost late than usual due to overslept... Not because I overworked myself but overdreamt lol.. Yup! suppose to do my assignment but end up watching Lee Min Hoo. I wish I live in that world! I know its all fantasy but don't you think its nice to make it reality..mmmm wonderful life! I don't wish myself as Jan Di the girl character. Yeah! character a lil bit the same clumsy, silly and temper! But I don't really have that much courage like her... Today line up 3 candidates to come in for interview from different post. 2 for accounts position and 1 for trainee. End up 1 call said grandma pass away. 1 turn up and the other one said too busy to come today. What the heck??? I wish this people realise how disappointed I am today! The accounts fella... how to say ya... reason leaving current company because he is married and now have kids and need more money! When asked what have you done to upgrade yourself in order to earn more money? The answer is nothing! Simple a

Britney Spears is not really my idol but I just admire her courage. She be the attention to media since she was at tender age. Whatever she does become a talk to media. No matter what is her attention good or bad always become a talk to people around the world. How she handle all the talk about her? I believe , take her a lot of courage to face such situation. Your wedding become to attention. You got pregnant being publicise widely. Not to mention about the break up part! Now on getting more love life again...she just can't stop from all those people talk about her and make money out of the story. I believe she miss her normal life but deep in heart she always remember she need to sacrifice to gain something. She gain her popularity and money but lost her freedom in life. Me? I currently live my life like an ostrich sticking down her head into the ground. I am ashame of myself of not being confident and capable. I don't know when I can put my head up again.... I just feel so

Finally , my LD learning journal submitted. I never been this late to do and submit my assignment. My efficiency seriously drop tremendously. Today's presentation seriously a flop! Why? I was very thirsty when I was presenting. Fasting month make thing worst. My mouth and throat was very dried just now. I feel very feel ashamed of myself. apart from that, I don't see any improvement in my presentation skills at all! No confidence at all. right after the presentation I wish I am an ostrich. So I can hide my head underground... uhuhuhuh.. I hate myself for that. I am still trying to figure out on what had happened to me. My schedule was very pack this week. Individual IB assignment coming up to due date next week. Then next group assignment the next week. Same time, I need to study on the products knowledge. This is extremely important. I feel very tired.... I am uncertain towards my future.... is it really going to be good, bad or whatTTTTTTT????

I am seriously exhausted these few weeks. But this week really challenge my strength. My workload at work no doubt very hectic with short handed of side kick! My future plan and on going process also killing me. Its better if this killing me rather than my existing work kiling me. At least I feel more better! Advertorial I posted on last Thursday received very good response. I receive emails, phone call and doing presentation to convince people to sign up ,make me tense. From Monday to Sunday I am working! But I enjoy doing this and I am getting more and more familiarise to present! I know I can build up my networking fast. Target 2 branches every month and will cool down once it reach 16. Long way to go honey! long way! I had not even started with my LD individual assignment - due date this Sunday. uhuhuhuhuhu.. This coming week my IB class starting and yet another presentation coming up on this Sunday. I manage to squeeze time for long delay acupuncture to my dislocate jaw or what so

Today, I woke up with positive mood. Last night I was studying the products by hard. Trying my best to perfect my sales pitch! I have been practicing in front of the mirror with hope I could control my expression well. My advertorial seems to be getting good response. I had received many inquiries via email, phone call, and sms. Tomorrow another busy day I manage to get 3 potential to listen to my presentation face to face.The rest due very far distance just need to settle via email and phone calls. Cross my finger hopefully, I get 1 BO from Brunei sign up under me. My plan is to get at least 2 BOs sign up under me in a month. Hopefully , my dream to open the retail shop comes true by end of this year. I need to tripple my effort to achieve this. Tonight I need to finish up my LD individual assignment. I guess need to burn the midnight oil.. or maybe not sleeping to finish this thing! Although I feel very tired and exhausted but I have to do this to make sure my life better in future.

These few days, my life is upside down... I am in between of study for my next class. Then I need to do my assignments. My workload become tripple and end of the month coming up! The most important in the world at this time is to study for my next interview and do THE BEST BUSINESS PROPOSAL. This is for my future. I only have one chance... I have to work for this. I have to make sure I do my VERY VERY BEST! I feel not enough time for myself right now! Hopefully this is a worth it sacrifice! Although I feel very tired but I have no choice to force myself. Dinner for tonight? Whatelse? feel like eating maggie but have to stick with my diet no dinner. JUST PLAIN WARM WATER uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... I need to loose weight, badly!

I am desprately want to loose my weight! I tried do sit up until my tummy cramped. I ate NH DTox slim pill. I taken many many or whatever said can loose weight but yet my tummy still bloated. What happen to me? I am not like this last time. It can't be because I grow old? I feel heavy and not healthy at all. Whenever I wear my clothing , I feel so so bulky like a sack of rice or wheat! Tempting to go for slimming centre but it is too expensive for me. Somemore now I am on heavy thrifty crisis for my up coming business plan. Argh! want to look good but yet still ugly! I feel so lack of confident right now! Hope can loose some 2 kg with my new regime which I just started last week. I feel so tired right now. Can't even open a book to do some readings!

One of my staff just resigned last Friday. My girl fall sick and not just sick maybe more than sick.. ah ! donno what I am talking mumbling about. Leaving me with one intern and one trainee. Luckily , I have one intern to give me a hand. This afternoon when that fella were talking about changing the company name and also change his mind on his current 3 years company's name. I was like want to laugh loudly to his face... Whatever! You can have thousands company. You can rent more or buy more office. But hey! who wants to work for you???? People keep leaving you!!!! Wake up!!! This evening I just gave my peace of mind to one lady... ah ! this people really make me boiling!!! My feeling right now is to open the window and jump from 12th floor!!!! Angry! very very angry and upset!

I met a friend last week and she were saying that she is getting married end of this year. Whoa! finally... Same age with me. We used to be sharing same dorm when I was form One. Yup! I was sent to boarding when I was 13 years old. But they withdraw me from the school because my study was so bad to extreme meaning I practically get '0' for my maths and '30' for my English. Hahahaha.. they just freak out when received my report card. I enjoyed to see their face at that time. Oh ya.. back to my 'so called' friend. Basically we are not friend. To be exact she is see me as a threat. mmmm why! Not really sure though. I was in my own world as usual and my life practically to myself. I don't really socialise. No friends. I don't really talk to people. They talk to me I talk to them but most of the time few words will do. Yup! I am a loner since then. She practically.. a 'PLAYER' not that pretty but sweet looking girl. She had changed her boyfriend like

Its Friday... trying to put up my high spirit in place. Try to dress well, put up more and more make up with hoping I can change my face to Megan Fox or Maggie Q or something ahahahaha yeah! in my sweetest dream. No matter how well I dress and how pretty is my make up , I am still plain fat RINA! sigh!!!!! Yes! I am still unstable this few days. One of our employee is leaving AGAIN! Another farewell to plan.. hate this! My responsibility increases by at least 300% more. I feel numb numb numb... With new office set up coming in , I don't know how to arrange my time to do my work. I smells trouble and trouble. Pepole say we need to stay positive and open mind. But in this case , I feel my positiveness and my strong self motivated attitude comes toward an end. I will SURVIVE!!! I guess.... I am waiting for my Prince to save me but still can't see him... where the hell are you??? I will only wait for you until next then i will shut my door.

Looking at this photo , now I realise I am very fat and short. Look a lil bit like mushroom though! Sigh! How can I make myself taller at this age? How can I reduce at least another 7 kg? Hard to acieve for time being and I have thousand reasons in store... hhihihih Trying hard to start out my learning journal for my LD individual assignment... loose the point though. I identified 3 assessment tools and completed only 2 assessment while watching my Goo Jun Pyo again... mmmmm just in love with that character so much and I wish I am Geum Jan Di the love interest on f Jun Pyon in the series. How I wish this become reality!!!! Yeah ! going to bed soon it 12.00 midnight. Tomorrow need go to work... Continue my assignment tommorrow le... Thank God ! I have done my portion of Group Assignment for LD. Let them settle their part and hopefully can get final draft by Friday.

Woke up with bad swollen throat! Not a flue a cough or even a fever but just swollen and painful throat. Weird! As usual went to office trying to keep my spirit motivated , until.... My Snr Accounts Exec slapped me with his resignation letter... Ah! expected.. but not so soon though.. I broke down deep in my heart but lucky still maintain my composure.. Damn it! When I am strategising to walk away here goes block here and there... Now it will be back to more burden.. Now I feel so helpless.. Life seriously not so easy for me. Every single sen I earned its like getting a coin out from volcano mountain. Seriously , deep in my heart I feel more and more sick! However, I take it as another challenge and this motivate me to move on from here soonest possible. On the way back pay a visit to Doctor. as expected got myself antibiotic and another tablet don't really know for what just swallow it all! My mind just blank. I didn't take my lunch. Why? Whatelse? work and work like a slave t

Wake up in the morning with a sore throat. Thank God ! I still have my voice because I am suppose to present this morning. Ah! feeling lazy to drive to class and lend my ears to LD lecture for almost 9 hours.. Sigh! I am so suffering.. I think so does my other coursemate hihihi.. Nervous breakdown and butterflies in my stomache waiting for my turn to present ,Not so obvious this time. Although , few of my coursemate commented I talk like a soldier..aishhh! what you expect? I just wanted to get over it and quickly and ran back to my place. My whole body was shivering... hehehehe yeah! that one cannot help it! Right after class I went for a pampering moment... yeah! naughty me again.. but this time apart from just having rejuvenate Thai Massage, I add in Body Scrub and Boreh Mask package. Yeah! cost me a bomb and look like need to 'Puasa' for 2 weeks hahaha... I don't mind though! I just love the feeling so good and satisfying! Hard earn money... I need that pampering.. Oh ya

My mood swing getting bad and bad, partly because I am too exhausted these few weeks. Not enough rest and sleep! My freaking client ' so called my employer' drive me nuts! Yeah! I treat all my employers like my client. I am so called providing services to them and they will pay me for my services. I have been putting up with this one for almost 3 years. I want to end my services soonest possible. By hook or by crook I need to find my way out from this place. I am telling myself over and over again , I will push myself harder and harder to make this happen. Not simply exit from this place but also prepare myself for good future. I have plan and in the midst of expidite this plan but I have to expect my life will be like hell this few months. Hopefully everyting will be in place by Christmas this year. I have to sacrifice many things from now on... Life getting harder when you are determined to achieve something! No pain no Gain.. I will marked this phrase... i will paste this ph

I just reached home when my phone rang. I answered the call and one lady start scolding me. She were saying my telephone number in her husband phone and she read all those romantically sms between her husband and so called 'me'. I tried to stop her attack but she dont even give me a chance to interrupt. sigh! I just want to ask what number is she dialing. Thats all! She keep shouting me slut! whore! and on an on and on... I can just hang up the call but I pity her so angry like mad person and afraid she kill herself right after I hang up. So I just kept quiete and listen to her for almost 5 minutes accusation on so called 'me'. She then realised the silenceness on my end. Then she start " hello hello are you listening to me WHORE!" I replied "Yeah! I am listening! Go on..." The she said " You bitch!" di di da da di da... and on and on.. Then I asked her " Hi lady! what number are you trying to call? and who is the person you lookin

Since last weekend , my spirit getting 'fire up'! I know I can do it this time. I hope it will work this time. I am preparing myself for the interview which is hopefully happen somewhere on mid Sep 2009. If everything fine, I will be busy busy busy for the store opening before Christmas or New Year 2010! Currently, I am busy studying on product and system - prepare myself with good presentation on mid Sep 2009. I don't want this to be a normal interview. I want it to be remembered for somebody who are well prepared and high potential. I want to be outstanding! This week is my new term and class coming up - its tomorrow actually. Leadership Dynamic! Still in the dark no sign of grouping arrangement yet. I read the study guide there will be more and more presentation coming up! ah.. butterflies in my tummy again.. Hopefully can finish my MBA + one Store to manage by end of this year.

Last weekend, is a hectic weekend for me. I am suppose to chill out and relax on this weekend as coming week which is this week, my new term starting. I feel very exhausted though. Last Saturday night , received a call and saying somebody that I use to be attached with when I am small was not in good condition. Old age sickness! She used to take care of me when I am a lil girl. I am hesitating between my 1st time acupuncture treatment for my jaw or going back to see her may be for the last time. However, I am glad that I went back and true enough its for the last time. 4 hours journey and reached there at late hours , 2.00am is worth it! 9.00am , I went to see her, she were lying on the bed ,paraliysed as if she in coma. I realise at that moment some part of her body, already dead. Her 2 feet and face were cold and her heart beat were very fast. She is waiting for God to take her soul. Heart broken and sad to see this kind of condition. I just trying my best to remain calm although my

Yesterday I was stucked in traffic jam as early as 6.30am at Jalan Seputeh leading towards Federal Highway. I was furious when I finally got to know it was only few police standing by the road side guarding the blocks. They did nothing , basically standing there and enjoy the scene of drivers squeezing into smaller road. Nothing much that we can say as we just merely normal citizen! I believe everybody was very frustrated as most of us are heading to works as usual. Evening time, as my office located with viewing towards sprint highway and damansara road, traffic started as early as 5pm. Damn! everybody was so frustrated again. End up went for mamak stall dinner with girlfriends. This morning , I woke up as early as 6.30am to ensure I can escape the jam . Yeah! today is important day for me. I need to go collect my new term study books. Class is next week. Most people warned me not to go as I will be stucked in road blocks jam again! I bought that thought for a second. But after deep t