Friday, January 21, 2011

Will I be remembered

Once I heard this from a friend around 7 years ago...
Friend : Na! (she call me Na short form from Rina) I feel I am getting old.
Me : Why? You are just 26 years old!
Friend : I remember last year when I read newspaper I will start with Metro section page and then National then sports. But lately I started with Obituary. I hope not to see anybody I knew here.
I don't response to her at all but just stare at her with my blank face.
That time , all this doesn't make any sense to me.
But today, I can feel it!
I was reading the newspaper and then obituary section. Looking for the dead. The announcement from the love ones. I also hope I will never come across anybody I know in this section. Maybe my time will come soon....God want remind me to be a good lady and I am on the way to see him soon......
You never know. Maybe later? tomorrow ?or maybe next week? or next month? or next year? It can happen anytime he like to call me.
One post really touch to my heart and soul. It is on Daniel Jason Phua 1st year with Jesus and Mary. His loves one even post the blog address.
I can't wait no more. The blog full of love from his loving family who are missing him deeply.
When I was reading the Daniel blog , I was holding my tears. I can feel the lost and the calmness of his family being depart from him. He is only 15 years old.
I pray for your soul happily in heaven and always be with the God.
Do I be remembered like how Daniel being remember?
Do I need to be remembered?
Suddenly I feel very down.... maybe because of my PMS. but I just feel sad and fear of death coming calling to me. Am I preapre enough? Not yet! not yet!... could angel of death hold on a little while. I still need prepare myself. Can I call you when I am ready? I dont think so..... OK ok I will live with it and try my best to get myself prepare when my time come. Hope you let me choose the easiest way. Thank you God for all your Bless!

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