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Me at almost 35 years old - still single and with career lead me to no where..:( Interesting.. I was looking back at all my photos, this is the only photo without me showing my outstanding big front teeth..lol! even my mykad and passport photo can see my front teeth.. Look quite sad though.. yeah! this because I am going off to sit for exam right after the photo hehehe yeah ! still can take photo eh? I just love doing all this crazy stuff to make me happy a bit. For this case I am sitting for my Competitve Strategy paper , you think I still can be showing my teeth?? Now since the exam is over.. I still can't enjoy my break period since my new study term starting. Very fast! I have 4 more papers to go.. I just downloaded my new subject online readings and maybe will print tomorrow. My next class is next week. I have been in a sleepless night these days due to doing too much of thinking. Yeah! again me and my looking forward to the future. Very nervous on what will happen next ... Ho...

I am scare right now! Tomorrow is the day. I have been praying for Saturday to over soon but same time afraid to face it! Sound contradicting ? Last week, I on leave on Friday suppose to at least do some revision but end up pampering myself with head massage treatment and nice predicure. Whats new with Rina.? She just love to treat herself good stuff! hahah What should I do today? I can't concentrate in even read the stuff! Butterflies butterflies flying in my tummy.. I guess only pampering myself can keep me calm and feel good right now and face tomorrow with confidence. Yeah! going out to buy good pen and also visit to nearest salon for hair wash & blow and nice head massage. mmmm my head will feel as light as cotton and the feeling on floating in the air after nice head massage. Ah! damage to my purse again but anything make me feel calm and good. Why not? I work hard for all this.. what stop me??? nothing... Jia You ! Jia You ! Rina you can do it tomorrow.. I gone through t...

Not feeling well tonight! Itchy in my throat. Feel like vomiting then feel hurt on my knee then hurt on my back then feel hurt in my heart then feel hurt im my head everywhere hurt now! Butterflies in my stomache in rebellious mood.. I feel very worried on my CS exam on Saturday. :(

Tonight ! I seriously very tired. I did continued on my Toyota question answering and at same time do some reading here and there. Feel so so tired, right now! I just can't wait for the exam to over! My eyes feel tired and my shoulder and back acheing like somebody just stabbed me. I am thinking of my bed and cozy chilli red blanket, right now! Also feel very upset because my friend just turn me down when I request to teach me swimming :((( gives me sort of reasons and pulling down my spirit to learn. Ah! so called friend... Look like I don't have people to depend on at all. Gotta pay for class then... :( Hope this Saturday come quickly.. then can catch up with my sleep.

Rainy day and very cold! Driving to office as usual with my eye half shut! Sleepy and tiring! I just wish I don't have to wake up from my bed and do my rolling rolling on the bed until 10.00am . Reached office very early again about 6.45am. Thought of starting to do my work then feeling not right , end up continue with my half cook Toyota analysis. Tiring very tiring but yet need to maintain my positiveness. I have been doing this since last night and half way through gave up! Feel like giving up now too but I just can't and have to force myself. Hope to have a good day today. Wish my Boss don't disturb my emotional today :)) If he does......, drastic response he will receive from me... both will end up very very hurt and ugly. Not in good mood at all! I am afraid of myself right now. Don't know what will happen if I can't control myself today. Seriously my mood swing is getting bad these days... people say going through menapous-too early lah... can't be.. and ...

This morning I was up too early and end up out to work around 6am. Yes! call me Crazy! Night before I was so tired to do that Toyota case studies. I still have plenty to catch up.. ah!!! I just can't wait for Saturday to over. As usual although very tired, I tried my best to keep my positive face and cheerful talk. Although , my position in the Company are consider in the range of Plateau which means no more growth. I tried my best to keep myself motivated. I am also in crazy mood today when trying to put myself into racing with one car. Yeah! he started it by challenging me. Manage to tease him by pretended to be into the race. But hehehe the best part he end up racing alone! Love it ! love it ! he is so damn piss off .. hahahaha How to race with you when my house is on the next junction, you IDIOT! Back home tried to do the analysis of SWOT,RBV,PEST, VC and PORTER 5.. but quarter way through I got fed up! So I quit and decided to continue later. No point to force myself when I am...

I am so freak out right now! 3 days to go.. I am still in that usual day and night dreaming mood. Everything seems to be not registered to my head! Aishhhh!!! I am so angry with myself. HR here HR there but I seems to .. DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO??? And another week to go I have this CS coming up and Toyota Strategy to analyse! Oucchhh!!! I need to pinch myself hard and wake up from my dreaming mood. Vow myself not to update my blog in another week!!!! I will stay focus and study smart!!! GOD BLESS ME!!!